The Voice that Saved a generation

I am so glad that I got my ipod the speakers, now there are more ways to hear the god of music Josh Groban. So I guess that makes me a grobanite living in grobania following a wiccan heart. Iam never sure if anyone reads this or is it only me. Which is fine because it helps with my journalling (is that a word)
I am breathing better and the pain is started to go away and with this gallbladder missing I am supposed to go back to the diet that put me in this position in the first place. But weird thing is that my bladder likes this new diet, I've sorta put myself on an easy to digest food plan. I know that I need to go back to the surgeon for a look see, since When I was in the hospital (the first time)she came by to tell me I needed to be seen. Especially with the fact that I blew an internal stitch some 4 odd years out.

Home From the Hospital

It seems as though I have no official list of people who read my blog, so this would be a good place to put down my thoughts when I get into trouble writing by hand. Which is the preferred method for my journal. But I'll just cut and paste inside and then print it all out and glue it to the book or use as an alternate method of adding to journal and print the stuff up and put them together as they're very important to me.

So begins this journal entry. Came home from the hospital last night after they gave me a shot of demerol and I had a little something to eat. Marc was going to get my pain medication this morning and did in fact go out to the store when he came back from Aunt Zel's breakfast. There are no scoring marks on the pill, but I guess that just because they filled with generic. I have a pill splitter so will see how that works out. If not I'll have to take it whole and see how that works.

I'm glad I finally figured out how to log on to this journal without all the confusion, so many accounts and passwords to remember and frustration on my part. My neck is spasming so I'm going to lay down for a little while.

Getting Ready For Surgery

The night Before..... Yes I am nervous the gallbladder is coming out ok w/that but will they be able to take it out laproscopically with min. of trauma to the body. If they run into problems because I'm different inside because of the gastric bypass in '05 - They'll open me up all the way - that'll keep me in the hospital for a week. so I'm putting it out there in the universe that goddess watch over me and keep me safe.

Missing my Josh Blog

I just got my 6 year patch from FOJG.com Josh Groban as I renewed my membership. They are revamping the website so I can't get into the blog area. Ugh how frustrating. I can't wait for the new album and the new direction he is going in. I doubt he could sing anything that I wouldn't love. I can't wait for our next grobie meeting. It'll probably be around christmas. We collect toys and the marines come to the party and pick them up. I heard last year they had to come back the next day because we had so much stuff. We try and not just be Grobanites but work on charities. Josh has his foundation and we raise money for that to help clean water in Africa and here at home for the kids. 8/16/09 Sunday

Fibromyalgia

Been reading up on it on the web and in a book called Prescriptions for Natural Healing which is definitely out of date no information in L-Threonine and Theanine there is a new edition out. I saw it at the local Russian Pharmacy for only $22. Tomorrow I'll go check it out and see if it mentions the new amino acids I've been reading about on the web. I can't try and the amino acids or DHEA until after the operation on the 20th. It's weird vitamins and herbs and nutritional suppliments have to be stopped a week before, I guess they don't understand and think it may interfere with the gallbladder. I can continue all 15 medications how bizarre is that.

Frustration

I offer to take Marc out to dinner but he's got the phone shoved up his Ass with Gilda so he asked me to wait a few minutes but this is fucked up. I'm hungry now!!! Well he's off the phone lets see what bullshit he says he has plans with mommy for dinner and of course I'm not invited because he says when he invites me I say no so there is no invitation for me. That's fine she's annoying anyway.

Beautiful day

Well it's a new day I think the new antidepressant is beginning to work. He put me on Wellbutrin and I wasn't very optimistic but after a week I'm feeling so much better. I look out my window and see the trees blowing in the wind and it just makes me smile.

My daughter called on Friday - that's our agreed upon day to speak with each other. I told her that the surgery would be on Thursday and she just said, "good luck" (because she says that is what I tell her is proper) She made no attempt to say she would visit me before or after the surgery. I know she's so busy with her house,job, and school. But she has never pushed me away this far before. She invited me to her new house but only during the week after work. I haven't a clue as to why I can't see her on the weekends at her house.

I made an effort last week and invited her to Cheesecake Factory, she was too tire from her company picnic. Strike One.
Never got a get well card or even a birthday card. Strick Two

Lets hope she becomes reasonable and there is no third strick. I am very happy for her getting out in the world, buying a house but I know there's something else going on. She has a hard time hiding things from me so there's something. I think I'll throw Tarot and see if that helps me decipher her actions.

Finally getting my Gallbladder out

got my date for my gallbladder surgery. Next thursday august 20th then I'll be better than new. Not sure how this blog thing really works like getting people to read what I've written. But for now it's kewl just to keep things straight for myself. It'll fall on the Dark Moon and that is Hecate's strong point. She is the Goddess of virgin, woman, old crone. I am her daughter and she will watch over me and for that I am very grateful.

where have all the flowers gone?

Sometimes I wonder why we spend so much of our time being angry at the government or religions, or our friends and other people. Yes there are psychic vampires as I like to call them out there. I have one - she tries every last nerve and I can only speak to her once a year if that! Tomorrow she is have a very serious surgery and I pray to goddess she will be ok, it's a shame she's not getting a personality change LOL.

So here I am went to the surgeon today and my liver enzimes where great. So I'm healthy and the twist they are going to take out my gall bladder because it's blocked. I spent a week in hospital and back again for more surgery. I have confidence in my doctor and I've already had a 2nd opinion. (which my hmo didn't cover) Any way just trying out this new blog.

Blessed Be
JO