It's easier to read the larger print. Ok I'm old I see that but tonight I'm hanging out with Heather who is 21 and we have no problem with our friendship it's actually really great. We are supposed to go to see Cassandra's Crossing Heavy Metal Band at Mystikal Voyage. She's at work and wants to go home to get ready for the concert tonight. She lives quite a distance but I have no problem picking her up. I found my daily journal and wrote in it stuff that I won't write here only because I wouldn't want to hurt anyones feelings or stuff that maybe I'm ashamed of feeling. Hmmm first time I've looked into that area. Maybe I could explore that with dr. Michael the pagan therapist that I've been thinking about seeing.
He's a pagan. He's a therapist although not an MSW like me. But hey that's ok. He can probably still help me. With a pagan I don't have to explain that visitation from grandpa Sam is real and I'm not psychotic. At least not from seeing him. LOL.
OMG Marc can be so freakin annoying He came into my room to tell me he was dropping Gilda off at CVS and I asked for Jelly Beans and he told me he wasn't going inside I was like ok. Then I started to talk to him and he just walked out and I was like excuse me and he said what was I going to say and I said I forgot. He was annoyed and said he didn't want to play the I can't remember game. I told him it wasn't a game that I have MS and brain lessions that cause memory loss. Believe me I wish it was a game but I explained to him that's why I have journals all over the place and have several blogs because I can't remember and Goddess do I wish I could remember it's such a debilitating feeling not to remember.
Any way I'm feeling really relaxed. Meds hard at work. I wish that I didn't feel so much need for the pain meds but have no choice because of how long I've been on them for over 15 years. That's a long time.
Well here's an interesting new thing in my world Marc has announced that he loves me omg am I that stupid but then I did tell him that the only person that really believes that is Catt. I told him that I was finally happy and he crushed it with his bullshit crap yesterday morning when Catt came over to hang out. After I convinced her to come and hang out. I told him that after I get my disability maybe I should just move out. He said I didn't have too. Interesting (will handwrite the what that really means too personal)
I realized that the scanner is an A+ copier both color and black and white. While I was talking to Marc earlier he told me he needed something printed out, I said I was going to buy a new thumb disc and he said he would buy me one. Hmmm that's interesting to me.. He may not understand many things like real emotions, he tries to imitate what he sees I know there's an actual like diagnosis for what his problem actually is called.
Heather cant' be too annoyed about not going out I told her at 4:30 - Early enough for her to change plans she was funky about it but too bad if she couldn't handle it. I just wanted to hang out here. I hope that Catt calls me if I don't hear from her by 9pm I will call her. Tell her about my conversation with Barbara she'll get a kick. But the truth is we keep talking about getting together so I want to make it so. She's fun. I have three sets of friends. I don't know if that's stupid or not but One set is the kids [- 20-30) they are fun and not judgemental. then (35- 60)Pagan and not but more into what I'm into. Guys Nough said.
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